I grew up in USSR amidst the military propaganda stream, atomic war terror and films about the Second World War. We were forced to hide in school’s basement for hours – a training for survival in a case of atomic bombing. I dreamt of becoming a soldier. A soldier is mighty, a soldier fights and controls reality. Kids were ordered around and not taken into account, soldiers were admired and respected.  Desire to control my own reality projects upon a soldier image. Observing the situation in the post - Cold War Europe, you can see the conflict based on mutual mistrust and fear. I do ask myself: am I programmed in a way that the right code could switch on fear and aggression? Where are these programs stored within me and do I have the power to reprogram them?